~Dreams~

Dreams, we all have dreams of things we would like to do or try to do.
Some of mine are:

Taking ballet lessons again
Learning how to play the piano
Taking voice lessons again
Going rock climbing
Going back to Quebec to live or visit Going sailing
Learn how to play the guitar

I believe my dreams will come true with all of God's help. He will strengthen me and teach me how to do it all.

These were just some things that were running through my head, I just thought I would share them with you.

What are some of your dreams?

~Words~

Are there words that really bother you when someone speaks them?

There are defiantly words that make feel sick inside when I hear people use them. I wish I could explain how much it makes me hurt when I hear certain words. I believe this something God is doing inside of me.

I have been thinking about it a lot lately. Why am I bothered my certain words? Then God brought this to my mind.


2 Corinthians 10:4-6
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 6And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.


The bolded text is what spoke to me. He said take every thought captive and make it obedient to me.

Maybe I sound too serious and I need to settle down. The truth is, is this is something that has been on my heart for a long time and I am choosing to stand on guard and take every word and thought captive in obedience of the Lord. Also when I hear someone calling me something that I do not agree with, I’ll be sure to let that person know. I know you might think it sounds lame. But there are certain words when I hear people use them they make me so angry when I hear people using them.

Why are we so quick to say negative words toward someone but slower to encourage them?

I have heard this saying over and over again before that it takes 10 words of encouragement to make up to for one discouraging word. This is true in many circumstances.

Basically I want my words to demonstrate Christ and who He is. I want people to see who Christ through my own language. It’s so easy for people including myself to fall into a place where we have ‘filthy talk’.

What is filthy talk? I am not the person to say what it is or is not. That is something for everyone to discern in their own lives. Filthy talk is something different for everyone.

Please do not get the impression that I do say anything bad or my thoughts are always good. That would be a lie. I struggle with this as much as many people do. But I want to try hard to watch what I say and think. There are days where I cannot think straight and my mind is consumed by thoughts of the world. Then I am reminded that God says my yoke is easy and my burden is light. I give over everything that is on mind and release it to Him. God is so great! He cares for us so much. Thank you Jesus!


Hebrews 3:1-3
Therefore, holy brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, the apostle and high priest whom we confess.

I am sorry if I haven’t made any sense I just really needed to express myself. If you do understand what I mean or what I am saying that is ok.

Encourage one another and build each other up in the name of the Lord.

~The Smell of God~

Last night Jen came over to my house. We hung out for a while and then we began to pray. In that time of praying I have felt anything so peaceful in my life before. Both Jen and I felt a thick presence of the Lord among us. It was a quite time of prayer. We just sitting or laying down and soaking and talking to God as things came to mind.




I was lying on my stomach and as soon as I sat up I felt this aroma hit my nose. I looked at Jen and I knew she smelt it as well. It was like the smell of spring and a wood smell and then mixed in was a perfume smell. We were experiencing the aroma of the Lord. We were both smiling and just laying there quietly breathing in this beautiful smell of the Lord. I have never experienced anything like this. It was amazing. I felt so much peace. I wish I could describe it better. God is so good. We never asked for this or anything. God blessed us by pouring out His smell on us. I haven’t stopped smiling! Thank you Jesus!!

~Guard Your Peace~

Peace - untroubled; tranquil; content.

As I mentioned in my last post God has been speaking peace into my life. Since probably about September where ever I am here about peace and I hear God speaking peace into me. I have had people praying it over me or talking to me about it. I am enjoying this place of peace.

Was there a period of time where I didn’t have peace?

I don’t think so I have God is blessing me with peace. I mean yes there are days where I am stressed, or I just don’t feel like talking to anyone.

I will never forget the words someone said to me as they got a word for me from God…it was “Guard your peace.” At first I did not understand a clue what this guy was talking about. I told me I had peace and I have felt at peace before he ever said anything to me. He said yes that is awesome now guard it! I said ok thinking not much of it but being well aware of what had just been said to me. That night!!! My peace had been stolen from me. I will not share what happened but I will say I had never felt so humbled and exposed before in my entire life. I really learned that night what it really might to GUARD YOUR PEACE!

God blesses us with peace but we need to guard that peace from the enemy. I didn’t to do that. I let it slip from my hands and I allowed anger and frustration to flood in.

Peace is one of the fruits of the spirit and this is something God is teaching me. I am feeling it and experiencing it for myself. Where ever I am I feel as though God is teaching me more about peace. I am really enjoying learning the deeper meaning to peace.

So often we can nudge this word off and look at other words more closely such as Love, joy patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. This is why I want to know more about this word and know why God is placing this word in front of my face where ever I go.

It’s interesting that God has been laying this word on my heart all the way leading up to the Christmas season. A song that comes to mind for me is Hark the Herald Angels Sing: in verse 1

Hark the herald angels sing

"Glory to the newborn King!

Peace on earth and mercy mild

God and sinners reconciled

"Joyful, all ye nations rise

Join the triumph of the skies

With the angelic host proclaim:

"Christ is born in Bethlehem

"Hark! The herald angels sing

"Glory to the newborn King!"

God’s peace is something we will never be able to fully understand. It evens says in the Bible God’s peace passes all understanding. You cannot see peace but you can tell when it’s around.

Romans 14:16-18
Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men.

John 20:21-22

Again Jesus said, "Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you." 22And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit.

GUARD YOUR PEACE!

~Love is Deep~

So I imagine many of you have already read Christian’s blogs about our relationship. If you did not know he is out in B.C and I am in N.B finishing off school and then getting married to him in May. Christian has been pretty open in sharing his struggles and being real on his blog about his relationship with me.

Let me share with you my side of the relationship.

It’s been almost 7 months since I have last seen Christian. Has it been hard? YES, but I do not regret this separation at all. My relationship with him over these past 7 months has only grown deeper. You might find that hard to believe where we don’t ever see each other. Our only means of communication is either msn or the phone. I have learned so much about communication. You see Christian cannot see my face and know whether I am upset or happy... it is my job just to say what I am feeling. I have learned to stop hiding around the bush in hopes he might figure out what I am feeling, that is completely unfair to Christian and irresponsible of me. I need to be honest with Christian. I am not saying I haven’t been honest with Christian I saying I have learned more about just saying what I feeling and what I want instead having him trying to guess my emotions. I know this sounds easier said, but it is much harder done.I have struggled,grown and I have learned.

God has taught both Christian and I about love and how deep it runs. Everyone knows about 1 Corinthians 13: 1-8. Christian has been looking deep into that and as he has been doing this he been teaching me SO much about love and how deep it runs. I have spent some time studying it as well. I was involved in a small group at my church it just happened that the group started out by going over these verses. It was very powerful for me.

I have made some really big mistakes that I have felt to inadequate and worthless at times but yet Christian has been there for me saying I forgive you and I love you and let me pray for you.

I feel God’s peace all around me. God has been speaking peace into my life lately over and over again. He is even telling me to guard my peace. It has been amazing and I love being in God’s peace.

In these times of waiting for the wedding day I see God preparing me, the bride for the wedding day to meet my groom. He’s preparing my heart and teaching me many different things. My heart longs to God more. I just want Him to be glorified on our wedding day. I am a very excited bride to be and am looking forward to May 10th.

There is my honesty and mushiness.

P.s To all you girls be good to your guys and TELL them what you want and what your feeling. Do not expect them to just know. They are NOT mind readers.

~Deep Sea Diving~

Jesus, tonight I ask that as I sleep I would dream of dreams of you and me deep sea diving. Show the sea. I want to explore all the different fish in the sea. Jelly fish, gold fish, whales, turtles, and frogs. Jesus I want to see it all. Show me the colors of the sea the blues, reds, purples, pinks, and oranges. Jesus I want to see it all. Show me all the rocks and sand that lay at the floor of the sea. Teach me how you made each and every little thing in the sea. Jesus I want to see it all. Please, take me deep sea diving tonight with you.

P.S I wrote this last night right before I went to bed I really felt God want me to write something about deep sea diving. It represents my relationship with Him and how I want to go deeper with Him in intimacy, I want to go deeper in to the Bible, and I want to go deeper into everything He is calling me into. God just laid it on my heart to write about deep sea diving. As soon as I began to write God began to speak to me through it all. I began to understand what he was telling me as I was writing this little letter as if it was a child writing to their father. :) I am so happy with God!!! He has given a lot of revelation on the simplest things. It's awesome!!!

~A Simple 'Hello' Goes A Long Way~

My time here is very shortly coming to an end. I have say it's nothing to what I had expected. It's far more and far better than I had ever expected. I feel so blessed by being able to come here. Everyone I have met has been amazing to us girls. I know leaving here is not going to be easy. The relationships I have made here are solid life lasting relationships. I have experienced people being the church to us by giving there owe daily lives to help out ours. I have learned so much as I have been here. I can't tell you how thankful I am that I had the chance to come here. I wish everyone could come here and experience for themselves the life and the community at the cafe. It's something of it's own.

Every Tuesday and Thursday there is a group of young guys from rehab center that come in to help around the café with whatever needs to be done. At the beginning of the summer I really felt like God wanted me to build relationships with these guys. Was I scared? Yes, I was very scared but I excited as well. I was afraid and nervous. I felt like I didn’t know what to do or how to do what God was asking of me. I figured out, that that was exactly why He wanted me to build relationships with them because He wanted me to get out of my comfort zone and be Jesus to them. I was strictly relying on God because over half of the guys were much, much bigger than me and well….I was intimidated by them. I waited on God and asked Him what I should do. Over time giving them the simple ‘hello’ and ‘nice to see you here’, I began to have conversations with them and build trust with them. A lot of them began really open to me and tell me what brought them to the rehab center. They also told me things like what they want to do when they get older. Their dreams and visions of life, it really amazed to listen to these guys. I found God was ministering to me as I was building relationships with these guys. These guys have dreams of getting married, having children, they have careers. Some said they want to be actors.

Every week I would look forward to the day I would get to see them again and talk with them. I would eagerly wait for Tuesday and then once Tuesday was gone I would wait for Thursday. I made sure I was at the café to talk with them or even just ‘Hi’ and show my face there. I would pray for them at night. I can’t believe what God done in my heart since I have met them. All I want is for them to experience the love of God. The words that I am writing are nothing to what my heart feels.

One of the guys there dreams of being a rap artist. Last week some time I was showing him my blog. He asked me if he could write poem for my blog. I said sure. That would be awesome. He didn’t show up today but one of his friends gave me the poem. When I read it I almost began to cry because I really saw for the first time what God was doing in this guy’s life that I had been praying for.

Here is the poem he wanted me to post for everyone to see.

As a human I struggle every day but a beautiful voice says everything will be ok. And I always try to keep my faith because there is none that can take my God’s place. There’s so much I don’t understand in this world like our obsession with money, cars and sex and that makes me feel that we are lost but out God is a forgiving one who would never abandon His daughters and sons and we should be more thankful because He gave His only begotten Son to shed His blood to show that pain is love but we don’t pay attention but none of us want to meet Satan for that would be a horrible damnation but I know we are not perfect beings and a lot try to fit his needs and ever more think that could never be but maybe what really need is the love from me and you and He gave for us the greatest gift of all. The choice to either rise or fall but we spend more time trying to please others and we often end up losing ourselves and we often forget we have a purpose and we should remember God will never desert us.

This is the poem from the young guy I met at the café. I am going miss these guys so much. God I ask that you bless this young guy and that He may continue to grow in Your love. Show more of who you are. Thank You for the relationship I build with these guys. I am so blessed.

~Uncommon Grounds, Uncommon Summer~

It's has been a while since I last posted anything on here. A lot has been going on.



As most of you know I am in Pennsylvaina working in a cafe here. God has been showing me so much. I wish I could word what my heart feels. I look around and I see a lot of heart broken people, but I also see hope in their eyes for this place. I see a lot people who feel unloved and worthless. That is why they come to cafe so people who love Jesus can love on them. I am telling you, it has been an amazing yet heart breaking experience as I have been hear. There have been times I cry myself to sleep on the behalf of other people who do not know the love of Jesus. Children as young as 5 years old are running around by themselves at 11 or 12 at night. God has been teaching me a lot as I have been here about so many different things. Somethings He is teaching me have been really, really challenging and some amazing! I have to say though that I am glad that I am here experiencing what I am experiencing and that God is opening up my eyes to new things. I have so many stories to share and I wish I could write every one out for you.....but if I did that I think my hands would be very sore.



A theme word of phrase I am learning about this summer would probably be something like "servent leadership". How do we do that? What does it look like? How am I doing it now? What can I change? Things like that run through my head. What do you think about servent leadership?

~My Offering~

Your name is beautiful
Your name is sweeter than honey
Your name is like perfume poured out.
And I love You oh God.

And I cry out
To know you more
Oh Lord
I want to be
I want to be
Your servant Jesus

So take me ask I am
I give You my life
as offering
I’ll give you all I have

I pour my life,
my everything
at your feet
May it be a sweet fragrance
unto You Jesus.

I want to be like you Jesus
I want to be a imitator of Your Kingdom
Shave away my plaque
Refine my heart and purify me

So take me as I am
I want to dance with You again
The dance of intimacy
So, I give you my life
This is all I have
It’s my offering to you

I lay here and
absorb Your heavenly presence
Jesus
I am off struck by the
Weight of your glory

I look to you
To find my way
I look to you
To find my strength
I look to you

To find the love
that never fails.
Jesus
All I want to do
Is live my life for You.

Cause You are
My Father
You are my
Creator
My friend and brother
Jesus You are more than
Enough, I love you.

~What Are the Girls Running After?~

I was just upstairs in my room praying and spending some time alone with God when God laid it very heavy on my heart to pray for girls. I really it was more the high school and young adult girls he wanted me to pray for but I pray for all girls. I had a vision of a girl. She looked like a model and then I got another vision right after that of a girl in a car with big sunglasses. She was laughing and was not watching the road while she was driving. I think might have been drinking. Then I saw her screaming because she crashed the car.

At this point it was when I asked God why I was getting these visions of these young women. He told me to pray for young women because many of them don't Me.

The world has got girls feelings like they have to be a certain person to "fit in".
The world says you need to be a size 0 to look beautiful
The world has got girls into not eating. They starve themselves.
The world has got girls thinking they have to dress a certain way to be expected. The world has got girls going drugs and drinking starting at a very, very young age - as young as grade 4. It breaks my heart.
The world has got girls believing that they are worth nothing.
The world has got girls giving themselves over to guys before marriage
The world has got girls running to pills, sex, cutting themselves, drugs, drinking when they are depressed.
The world has got girls questioning who they are
The world has got girls questioning happiness
The world has got girls questioning who is God and how many gods are there
The world has got girls questioninf who do should I worship?
The world has got girls asking themselves who are they living for


Every one of these things breaks my heart. When I was praying I began to cry because the enemy has such a strong hold on their lives that it hurts me to see that.
I began to pray against the works of the enemy and ask God to surround these girls and young women with His love. I prayed that they may find their idenity in Jesus Christ and not in material things like clothing, drugs, guys, make-up, etc.


WHO AM I IN CHRIST???
I am accepted...

I am God's child ~ John 1:12

As a disciple, I am a friend of Jesus Christ ~ John 15:15

I have been justified ~ Romans 5:1

I am united with the Lord, and I am one with Him in spirit ~ 1 Corin. 6:17

I have been bought with a price, and I belong to God ~ 1 Corin. 6:19-20

I am a member of Christ's body ~ 1 Corin. 12:27

I have been chosen by God and adopted as His child ~ Ephesians 1:3-8

I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins ~ Colossians 1:13-14

I am complete in Christ ~ Colossians 2:9-10

I have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus Christ ~ Hebrews 4:14-16

I am secure...

I am free from condemnation ~ Romans 8:1-2

I am assured that God works for my good in all circumstances ~ Romans 8:28

I am free from any condemnation brought against me, and I cannot be separated from the love of God ~ Romans 8:31-39

I have been established, anointed, and sealed by God ~ 2 Corin. 1:21-22

I am hidden with Christ in God ~ Colossians 3:1-4

I am confident that God will complete the good work He started in me ~ Philippians 1:6

I am a citizen of Heaven ~ Philippians 3:20

I have not been given the spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind ~ 2 Timothy 1:7

I am born of God, and the evil one cannot touch me ~ 1 John 5:18

I am significant...

I am the branch of Jesus Christ, the true vine, and a channel of His life ~ John 15:5

I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit ~ John 15:16

I am God's temple ~ 1 Corin. 3:16

I am a minister of reconciliation for God ~ 2 Corin.5:17-21

I am seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenly realm ~ Ephesians 2:6

I am God's workmanship ~ Ephesians 2:10

I may approach God with freedom and confidence ~ Ephesians 3:12

I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me ~ Philippians 4:13

THE MORE YOU REAFFIRM WHO YOU ARE IN CHRIST, the more your behavior will begin to reflect your true identity!

I strongly believe God wants to do something in the lives of girls and young women. It's our jobs to be praying for them. Praying that they will come to know God and seek after His Kingdom. God wants us to get serious with our relationship with Him.

Note: To all girls God loves you so much. You are His daughter, His precious one, His child. He loves you just the way you are. You are beautiful in the eyes of the King. You make Him smile.

Those who know me well know that I have a real heart for girls and young women. I have a passion to pray for them and listen what God wants to do in the lives of women today. It really breaks my heart to see women running after worldly things to get fulfilled. Jesus protect them and open their eyes to your love. We need to be praying for girls and women to come to know God and His love.

1 Peter 2:9

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light

Remember Jesus died on the cross because He loved us that much. He would die on the cross if you were the only one on the earth. Why? Because He loves you so much and YOU are HIS child. He longs to have a relationship with the every one he created. With Christ we are FREE!!!

~Go West Young Man~

It’s has been a while since I last wrote something here. Today I woke up very early. I woke up at 4:00am and headed to the air port. Why? My fiancé (Christian Gowan) left today on the plan to B.C. He’s going to be working in the church out there. He’ll be a parish evangelist there. He’ll be doing Saturday night services. The services will be more relaxed and laid back. They will be aimed at families with children and youth as well who don’t have families in the church.

In the mean time I am still in New Brunswick this year finishing my last year of Taylor. I am not going to see Christian for 11 months. I don’t count on seeing him during the Christmas break because we all know that it is really busy in the church during Christmas. The next time I see him for sure for sure though is April 2008 a couple days before my grad and then a week and a bit before we get married. Exciting!!!

I am really excited for Christian. I think God is going to use Christian to do some amazing things. I am looking forward to hearing all the stories. Am I sad that he is gone? Of course! It was really hard saying good bye and knowing I am not going to see him for 11 months. I find my comfort in Jesus Christ. Yeah I cry but I am also extremely happy that he’s out there. I know it all sounds confusing. I can barely write down what my heart is feeling because there are so many different emotions running through me right now.

I think it’s going to be a hard year yet amazing year for the both of us. It’s going to be hard that we are both so far away from each other but it’s also going be amazing for us individually. I know God is going take us both to an even deeper level of intimacy. I am SO excited for that! I am so hungry for more God as I write this blog. I just want soak in His presences.

One thing I do ask is that anyone who reads this that you would keep Christian and I in your prayers this year. I am sure some of you know that being separated from the one man or woman you love is very hard. All yours prayers will be well appreciated. Thank you.

2 John 1:3

Grace, mercy and peace from God the Father and from Jesus Christ, the Father's Son, will be with us in truth and love.

~A Revelation of the cross~

It's been some time since I last posted something on here. I want to share with you is burning on my heart, but before I do that I want to tell that getting to where I am now was a long, long hall. I went through very dry season. I had a very hard time finding time as well as wanting to read my Bible and intercede. It was very hard.

Let me tell you though, I have learned things through this long dry season. I have learned for myself that even when it's dry we must seek God out with all our hearts (that is easier said, than done) I have experienced God's faithfulness, I have learned that the dry season is only a season... it's not forever!!! PRASIE THE LORD!!! I have learned that even in the driest times God will show Himself in unexpected ways!! Thank You LORD!!!

I am so full of the joy of the Lord. I have been brought out of this dry season. God has stirred this new passion, hunger and desire for me in my heart. Man I am so excited. I feel like my heart learned something. Ha if that makes any sense to you. I was watching a Todd Bentley Video and he was talking dwelling in the secret place. After I heard talk I felt my heart had been opened up to something new. I want to seek out God with all my heart, mind and soul. I want to dwell in the secret place. God has been giving so many more dreams, visions and words for people. I am so hungry!!!!!

Seriously there is so much I wish to share with you, but I can honestly I cannot put what my heart in feeling into words. The last couple weeks I have feeling God's love for his people. I was home group one night and I closed my eyes and I got vision of Jesus right before He was put on the cross. I saw Him getting beating and then I saw Him beating put on the cross. I felt as though I had revelation of the cross and God's love for us. Man it's incredible.

Today I went to the Good Friday service at my church. My dad and the Bishop carried down this huge cross from the back of the church to the front on their shoulders. Watching this was very moving. There was time anyone who wanted to go to the cross and kneel before it. I sat in my pew and starred at the cross. I began cry because it was so powerful. I felt God's heart I began to picture him on that cross.

It's easy for us to forget what God has done for us. I pray that everyone that reads this blog may have a whole new revelation of God's love for them and a revelation of the power of the cross. It's only through Jesus dying on the cross for us that we are able to have a relationship with him today. Remeber He died for You and me. He loves You so much that he was willing to die on a cross for you.I am so thankful for that. I pray that whatever it may be that is holding you back from knowing Jesus that, that may fall to the ground so you may draw near to Him. He is my first love and Ilove Him with all my heart. May He pour His Spirit down on you this night. I am so thirsty for more of God. Jesus fill me up with MORE OF YOU!!!

~The Heart of Jesus~

Yesterday I was sitting in Tim's reading my Bible. God became to really show is heart to me through what I was reading. I was reading Matthew 15: 29-32. The Story of Jesus feeding the four thousand.

Jesus left there and went along the Sea of Galilee. Then he went up on a mountainside and sat down. Great crowds came to him, bringing the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute and many others, and laid them at his feet; and he healed them. The people were amazed when they saw the mute speaking, the crippled made well, the lame walking and the blind seeing. And they praised the God of Israel.

Jesus called his disciples to him and said, "I have compassion for these people; they have already been with me three days and have nothing to eat. I do not want to send them away hungry, or they may collapse on the way."

As I sat there I began to picture myself being there as Jesus was sitting on mountain side. There were CROWDS of people coming to see Jesus; they believed with ALL THEIR HEART that they would be healed. Imagine CROWDS of people who were lame, blind, crippled, and mute and many others. These people were all laid before Jesus.

Imagine this picture. It's it beautiful?

Jesus healed them all and people they were so amazed to see what He was doing. They were encouraged and their faith increased.

Jesus called his disciples to him and "I have compassion for these people, they have already been with me three days and have nothing to eat. I do not want to send them away hungry, or they may collapse on the way."

Right here I saw and felt the heart of Jesus. He has compassion for these people. He watched them as they follow him for 3 DAYS and then he healed them of their sickness. He had a heart and a deep love for them. He didn't want them to leave hungry.

I can go further with this but I wanted to share with you my heart and what is burning inside of me. I sit here and cry because I feel the heart of Jesus. He is showing me and having me experience the same feelings He felt for His people.

I wish there was a better way I could expression the deep love and compassion I am feeling right now. I am so overwhelmed and overjoyed with God.

Picture yourself there
What are you experiencing?
What are you feeling?
What are you seeing?
What do you see?
What is your heart saying?


God is taking me into a new season. I feel I have come out of a long and dry season and I am excited to enter into a new season. Jesus thank You so much for showing the things You have shown me.

~Engaged!~

Yes many of you know Christian Gowan and I are officially engaged. Christian got down on his knees Friday night, February 16th 2007 asking if I would marry him. I said yes.

Hilary, Susan, Katie and Jen came home and they knew right away what happened. We all went over the chapel and began to worship God and give thanks. They all decided to pray over Christian and I. I was blessed and encouraged by everyone who prayed over us that night.

As it stands right now, we are thinking of getting married sometime in the beginning of May 2008....No set dates yet. We will keep everyone updated though.

Thank you Jesus for how you have directed both Christian and I in this relationship. All glory goes to You God.

Thank you to all of you who have been praying for us. May the Lord bless you greatly.

~Meeting Them Where They Are At~

It's been a while since I last posted something. I just thought I would share with you want God is doing in my life. As some of you already know I try to go to Tim's on Tuesdays to talk with people about Jesus. I find that this experience has been so stretching for me. I am stepping out of my comfort zone and stepping into someone elses so I am able to meet them where they are at.

Last Tuesday I went to Tim's and I sat on my own for a while. After reading a book for a little while I spent some time looking at the people around me and praying for them. I asked God to make an opportunity where I can talk with someone. As I continued to pray my eyes kept getting drawn over to this one side of the restaurant. I saw that there was a man sitting there all by himself. He had been there for a while. He was probably in his late 60's early 70's. I felt God wanting me to talk with this man. So after sitting there and trying think things over in my head, such as how am I going approach him, what am I going to say, I finally I got the courage to get up out of my own seat and sit down with this man at his table.

I asked him how he was doing and if it was alright if I sat here with him. We talked about what he does for a living and what I am doing in school. Also I told what I would be doing after I graduate. It was a very short conversation because his friend came for him to pick him up. As he left I got up to leave as well. I got outside and at first I really bummed out because I felt really disappointed that I never got to share the gospel with or even talk to him similar interests. As I lelt Tim's praying for this man God reminded me of something.

What God reminded of was, I said just enough to that man for him to understand who I was, what I believed in, and what I do. Also God reminded me that I what just did was awesome. It's not everyday where someone of my age would sit down with a stranger much, much older than they are and give them the time of day to just listen to them. I felt God really encourage me after that because I felt really down for a little bit. I wasn't sure if what did was right. God just completely encouraged me. He reminded me of what I was doing and how rare it is for someone to talk with a stranger. I left praising God and praying for the man I met at Tim's.

Thank You Jesus for all that people I have met and all the opportunities you have created and are creating. You are so good!!

~What Is On Your Canvas This Year?~

A couple of nights a go I was listening to a sermon on my laptop by Judah Smith. I found that God really spoke to me through this sermon. So I really want to share with you what God has put on my heart when I heard this sermon.

This is a new year. What does that mean though? With every New Year there are things that change, for the good and for the worse. Did you know that with every year it’s like we have this blank canvas, a new a fresh white canvas.

It’s exciting to think about a beautiful canvas every year. It’s up to us to find out from God what He wants to see on that canvas.

God gives us different seasons. It’s up to us to walk in obedience and walk in that season God has placed before us. As we walk out what God is calling for us on our lives then this will paint a beautiful picture on our canvas.

Now if we know what God is asking us to walk in and we don’t do it. Then the picture on your canvas will be blots of paints and it would really messy looking. It won’t be beautiful. Why is this? God wants us to be walking in the season He has placed for us.

We are His children and loves us, but it hurts Him beyond belief to see that His gifted and talented children are not walking in the calling He has set out for them.

I just want to relate these pictures together and how important it is for all to really press into God and His word and seek out what it is He has for us.

I think it’s important for all to ask the Lord what for in 2007?

What do want me to do?

As we seek after God more and more we become more intimate with Him. As you continue build a stronger relationship with God He will show you things that need to be taken away or possibly added on. God is our Heavenly Father. Like any Father is going to show us those things we need to put away.

For example when I younger I use play with Barbie’s, and dolls. I loved playing with them. As I grew older I came realize that I was getting too old to play with dolls. My mom decided to sell them at second hand store. After I got rid of them I felt better I even felt little older knowing I was ‘too old’ to still be playing to dolls.

1 Corinthians 13:11-12

11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

It’s the same with us today. Sometimes we carry things on from when we younger that shouldn’t be carry on as we grow older.

For example if you saw someone my age playing with a toy truck you would think that is really weird right. Maybe that is a little extreme but sometimes we don’t even realize t but we might we carrying on things we have not yet put away.

It’s important that each when have blank canvas we not only to ask God what goes on that canvas but also to ask him what do I need to put because I am older now.

God might want you to put away some things in the physical. It could be CD’s, tapes, books, clothes, magazines, movies anything. It’s you and God.

God might want to put away things in the emotional. It could be different attitudes, your way of approaching people,

As put things away we grow more maturely and also grow more intimately with God because are obeying what He is asking us to do.
I know that there are thing God has already layen on my heart that He is telling me to get rid off and to put.

He's showing the seasons I am to be walking. It's exciting, challenging, strentching all at once. Through it all we grow to know Him more which is so much better than anything else.

There are two questions I really want you two think about and leave with. I also want you to try to take time and ask God these questions as well.

1. What does God on my canvas this year?
2. What do I need to put away this year?

Take these questions to God

~Coffee and Conversation~

Yesterday I decided to go to Tim’s in hopes I would be able talk to someone about Jesus. I went by myself. When I got there I bought a coffee for myself and sat down somewhere central so I see where most of the people were. I pulled out a book from my bag and began to read. I read for a little while until I was caught off guard when I accidentally over heard some men talking about preachers and the different churches. My ears perked up.

Now let me tell you in the corner of Tim's there was this crowd of men ageing from 60's -late 70's. They were all in getting breakfast and their morning coffee. As soon I saw them I felt like there was someone there I needed to talk to. I was a little intimidate by them because there had to have been as least 8 guys all talking theirs trucks fixing and other people's trucks.

So I am still sitting in my spot far away enough so doesn't look like I am watching but close enough to see them. haha I continued to read my book or at least try because my mind was on the group of people and I was so nervous to talk to them. So as I reading I just began to pray for the right opportunity to arise and for God to be in control of the situation. Then something came to me. I really wanted to go to the Baptist book room to buy a Bible. I also didn't know what direction in was in from Tim's because I had never gone to the new BRB. Then a man walked in to Tim's and got his breakfast and his coffee. He ended up seating fairly close to me. As I was thinking about talking to this man about 5 of the other men left. I was just about to turn myself to say hello to this man sitting just down the bench from me when a man from the table to was looking at with all the men called to him and asked him to come over. I knew then God wanted to go to THAT table where those men were. I was still nervous.

I decided to go and ask to them where the Baptist book room was? So there I was went I got up out of my seat walked right over these men and asked them... excuse would you know where the Baptist Book Room is? They had to think about it for a second but they did end up helping me about. After telling me where it was I asked them if they came Tim's every morning. I also told them I went to school here and what I doing. From there we ended up talking about ministry, the church and how they see that there aren’t as many people in the church these days, we talked about what Taylor College, we talked about a lot of different things. After that one simple question where is the BRB? It went from there and we just talked about everything to do with the church. I remember asking them what their names were.... they told me their names and then younger of the two looked at me and said ' what are writing a book?' hahah I laughed and said no I just enjoy talking with people and getting to know them. They were both very surprised by the fact I was talking with them but they did enjoy telling me stories. I had such a good time talking with them and sharing with them about Jesus and then them sharing with me. It was really amazing.

Thank You Jesus for opportunities like yesterday where I could share and talk about You with other people I do not know. You are good!!

~The Pouring Out!~

Acts 2: 14 - 28

God’s promise is that He will pour His spirit out on all flesh. This began on the day of Pentecost where God poured out His spirit on the people. God continues to pour His Spirit until the day God will pour His Spirit on ALL flesh.

He does not say I will just sprinkle my Spirit here and maybe there, and I will chose who I want to sprinkle. No it does not say that. God will pour out his spirit out on to ALL flesh.

It’s like taking a big bucket of water and pouring it out on to soil so the seed may grow. God pours His spirit on us so we may grow more intimate with him.

What does God pouring out His Spirit on us look like?

Peter quotes on the day of Pentecost what the Prophet Joel prophesied. He prophesied about God’s fullness when he pours out His Spirit. You see what Joel prophesied was a fulfillment of the last days. The day of Pentecost was only the near fulfillment of the last days.
We know that we are living in the last days now.

Before this day God’s Spirit was only poured out in drops. In the Old Testament people would meet in the tent of meeting but it was only the priest’s who were allowed in the Holy of Holies. When you entered the Holy of Holies, it was only one person allowed in there at a time. They had to tie themselves to a chain so the people on the outside can pull them out incase they die there or fell or pasted out. This was not a pouring out of the Holy Spirit but it was God’s presences.

Now since Jesus’ crucifixion the veil in the tent of meeting dividing the Holy and the Holy of Holies has been torn and we are all free to worship as if we are in the Holy of Holies. But God had not yet poured out His Spirit.

What did the day of Pentecost look like?
What would it look like to see God pour out His Spirit on all flesh?

In verses 20- 21 Joel prophesy that even though the pouring of God’s Spirit will happen and it will be poured out on to all flesh. He continues to say that there will be judgment.

‘The sun shall be turned to darkness and the moon to blood, before the day of the Lord comes, the great and magnificent day. And it shall come to pass that everyone who calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. (ESV)

There is judgment. What are we willing to do? What are we willing to let go of for God to pour out His Spirit into us? Maybe we are holding we are holding on to things that are keeping us from getting closer to God, maybe our focus in our things not us God, Maybe our words and our actions are not reflecting God.

God is still going to judge us, this why we need to go to Him and confess our sins.

God has forgiven us. Peter quotes David in verses 25 -28.

'I saw the Lord always before me.Because he is at my right hand,I will not be shaken.Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will live in hope,because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy One see decay.You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.'

We have been redeemed through Jesus Christ dying in the cross for us. His Grace is Sufficient for us. God continues to fulfill His promise by pouring out His Spirit until the day He pours it out on to all flesh.

Call out to the Lord and ask him to pour out onto you. We can live in the presences of God, God’s Spirit pours out on to us because the veil has been broken and we are free to worship God as if we all were in the Holy of Holies.

~Cleaning Out My Closet~

Happy New Year's Everyone!!!

Family time, Turkey, leftovers, game night every night, chocolate everywhere, late nights, many conversations, knitting with my older sister, movies…bad ones... and good ones, an exhausted dad day on Christmas day (he had 4 serves to do within 24 hours), and a family that is thankful to be together during Christmas and celebrate the wonderful birth of our Lord Jesus Christ and wait for His second coming.

It has been really interesting for me lately. I have been in the midst of cleaning out my room. I am actually really enjoying it. I am doing this because I really do not have any other time to do it other then the one month I am home in the summer. I have been finding all sorts of different things....papers, old poems I wrote when I was in elementary school, old notes I would write to friends during class, old dolls, and toys, pictures I had drawn( ha I was amazed with my drawing abilities at that age).

I felt like I walking through the very stages of my childhood all over again. There were pictures of me when I was all of 3. I saw a picture of myself and my best friend Holly when I live in Quebec. Oh it brought back so many memories. As I looked at all the things on shelves, in my closest it brought back the simple mind set I had about life. The imagination and the things I would believe triggered within me. I had such a creative nature.

One other I have been experiencing is how important it is to stay in touch with friends. I miss all my high school friends and I wish I had the chance to stay in touch with them. I do what I can by talking to them online. I wish I could spend time with them. There is only so much one can do. Part of it is that we have really grown apart. I know and understand that they are in different places in life but I wish they would see how important this is to me.

I am also realizing how important it is to stay in touch with those who don't go to school with you and live outside of the city and/or the province. I came to realize that I have been doing a horrible job at staying in touch with people. I think a lot have a hard time with this ... or am I on my own. What I want to do for myself is get into the habit of e-mailing and staying in touch NOW so that when I leave college and am out on my own I hope that I can still stay in touch with my closest of friends.

I am sorry to all my friends that I have done such a bad job in keeping in touch with all of you. Please forgive me. I really want to do a better job at staying in touch with everyone.

Well that is all for now folks. May God Bless you in this New Year!!