~Dreams~

Dreams, we all have dreams of things we would like to do or try to do.
Some of mine are:

Taking ballet lessons again
Learning how to play the piano
Taking voice lessons again
Going rock climbing
Going back to Quebec to live or visit Going sailing
Learn how to play the guitar

I believe my dreams will come true with all of God's help. He will strengthen me and teach me how to do it all.

These were just some things that were running through my head, I just thought I would share them with you.

What are some of your dreams?

~Words~

Are there words that really bother you when someone speaks them?

There are defiantly words that make feel sick inside when I hear people use them. I wish I could explain how much it makes me hurt when I hear certain words. I believe this something God is doing inside of me.

I have been thinking about it a lot lately. Why am I bothered my certain words? Then God brought this to my mind.


2 Corinthians 10:4-6
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 6And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.


The bolded text is what spoke to me. He said take every thought captive and make it obedient to me.

Maybe I sound too serious and I need to settle down. The truth is, is this is something that has been on my heart for a long time and I am choosing to stand on guard and take every word and thought captive in obedience of the Lord. Also when I hear someone calling me something that I do not agree with, I’ll be sure to let that person know. I know you might think it sounds lame. But there are certain words when I hear people use them they make me so angry when I hear people using them.

Why are we so quick to say negative words toward someone but slower to encourage them?

I have heard this saying over and over again before that it takes 10 words of encouragement to make up to for one discouraging word. This is true in many circumstances.

Basically I want my words to demonstrate Christ and who He is. I want people to see who Christ through my own language. It’s so easy for people including myself to fall into a place where we have ‘filthy talk’.

What is filthy talk? I am not the person to say what it is or is not. That is something for everyone to discern in their own lives. Filthy talk is something different for everyone.

Please do not get the impression that I do say anything bad or my thoughts are always good. That would be a lie. I struggle with this as much as many people do. But I want to try hard to watch what I say and think. There are days where I cannot think straight and my mind is consumed by thoughts of the world. Then I am reminded that God says my yoke is easy and my burden is light. I give over everything that is on mind and release it to Him. God is so great! He cares for us so much. Thank you Jesus!


Hebrews 3:1-3
Therefore, holy brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, the apostle and high priest whom we confess.

I am sorry if I haven’t made any sense I just really needed to express myself. If you do understand what I mean or what I am saying that is ok.

Encourage one another and build each other up in the name of the Lord.

~The Smell of God~

Last night Jen came over to my house. We hung out for a while and then we began to pray. In that time of praying I have felt anything so peaceful in my life before. Both Jen and I felt a thick presence of the Lord among us. It was a quite time of prayer. We just sitting or laying down and soaking and talking to God as things came to mind.




I was lying on my stomach and as soon as I sat up I felt this aroma hit my nose. I looked at Jen and I knew she smelt it as well. It was like the smell of spring and a wood smell and then mixed in was a perfume smell. We were experiencing the aroma of the Lord. We were both smiling and just laying there quietly breathing in this beautiful smell of the Lord. I have never experienced anything like this. It was amazing. I felt so much peace. I wish I could describe it better. God is so good. We never asked for this or anything. God blessed us by pouring out His smell on us. I haven’t stopped smiling! Thank you Jesus!!

~Guard Your Peace~

Peace - untroubled; tranquil; content.

As I mentioned in my last post God has been speaking peace into my life. Since probably about September where ever I am here about peace and I hear God speaking peace into me. I have had people praying it over me or talking to me about it. I am enjoying this place of peace.

Was there a period of time where I didn’t have peace?

I don’t think so I have God is blessing me with peace. I mean yes there are days where I am stressed, or I just don’t feel like talking to anyone.

I will never forget the words someone said to me as they got a word for me from God…it was “Guard your peace.” At first I did not understand a clue what this guy was talking about. I told me I had peace and I have felt at peace before he ever said anything to me. He said yes that is awesome now guard it! I said ok thinking not much of it but being well aware of what had just been said to me. That night!!! My peace had been stolen from me. I will not share what happened but I will say I had never felt so humbled and exposed before in my entire life. I really learned that night what it really might to GUARD YOUR PEACE!

God blesses us with peace but we need to guard that peace from the enemy. I didn’t to do that. I let it slip from my hands and I allowed anger and frustration to flood in.

Peace is one of the fruits of the spirit and this is something God is teaching me. I am feeling it and experiencing it for myself. Where ever I am I feel as though God is teaching me more about peace. I am really enjoying learning the deeper meaning to peace.

So often we can nudge this word off and look at other words more closely such as Love, joy patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. This is why I want to know more about this word and know why God is placing this word in front of my face where ever I go.

It’s interesting that God has been laying this word on my heart all the way leading up to the Christmas season. A song that comes to mind for me is Hark the Herald Angels Sing: in verse 1

Hark the herald angels sing

"Glory to the newborn King!

Peace on earth and mercy mild

God and sinners reconciled

"Joyful, all ye nations rise

Join the triumph of the skies

With the angelic host proclaim:

"Christ is born in Bethlehem

"Hark! The herald angels sing

"Glory to the newborn King!"

God’s peace is something we will never be able to fully understand. It evens says in the Bible God’s peace passes all understanding. You cannot see peace but you can tell when it’s around.

Romans 14:16-18
Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men.

John 20:21-22

Again Jesus said, "Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you." 22And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit.

GUARD YOUR PEACE!

~Love is Deep~

So I imagine many of you have already read Christian’s blogs about our relationship. If you did not know he is out in B.C and I am in N.B finishing off school and then getting married to him in May. Christian has been pretty open in sharing his struggles and being real on his blog about his relationship with me.

Let me share with you my side of the relationship.

It’s been almost 7 months since I have last seen Christian. Has it been hard? YES, but I do not regret this separation at all. My relationship with him over these past 7 months has only grown deeper. You might find that hard to believe where we don’t ever see each other. Our only means of communication is either msn or the phone. I have learned so much about communication. You see Christian cannot see my face and know whether I am upset or happy... it is my job just to say what I am feeling. I have learned to stop hiding around the bush in hopes he might figure out what I am feeling, that is completely unfair to Christian and irresponsible of me. I need to be honest with Christian. I am not saying I haven’t been honest with Christian I saying I have learned more about just saying what I feeling and what I want instead having him trying to guess my emotions. I know this sounds easier said, but it is much harder done.I have struggled,grown and I have learned.

God has taught both Christian and I about love and how deep it runs. Everyone knows about 1 Corinthians 13: 1-8. Christian has been looking deep into that and as he has been doing this he been teaching me SO much about love and how deep it runs. I have spent some time studying it as well. I was involved in a small group at my church it just happened that the group started out by going over these verses. It was very powerful for me.

I have made some really big mistakes that I have felt to inadequate and worthless at times but yet Christian has been there for me saying I forgive you and I love you and let me pray for you.

I feel God’s peace all around me. God has been speaking peace into my life lately over and over again. He is even telling me to guard my peace. It has been amazing and I love being in God’s peace.

In these times of waiting for the wedding day I see God preparing me, the bride for the wedding day to meet my groom. He’s preparing my heart and teaching me many different things. My heart longs to God more. I just want Him to be glorified on our wedding day. I am a very excited bride to be and am looking forward to May 10th.

There is my honesty and mushiness.

P.s To all you girls be good to your guys and TELL them what you want and what your feeling. Do not expect them to just know. They are NOT mind readers.

~Deep Sea Diving~

Jesus, tonight I ask that as I sleep I would dream of dreams of you and me deep sea diving. Show the sea. I want to explore all the different fish in the sea. Jelly fish, gold fish, whales, turtles, and frogs. Jesus I want to see it all. Show me the colors of the sea the blues, reds, purples, pinks, and oranges. Jesus I want to see it all. Show me all the rocks and sand that lay at the floor of the sea. Teach me how you made each and every little thing in the sea. Jesus I want to see it all. Please, take me deep sea diving tonight with you.

P.S I wrote this last night right before I went to bed I really felt God want me to write something about deep sea diving. It represents my relationship with Him and how I want to go deeper with Him in intimacy, I want to go deeper in to the Bible, and I want to go deeper into everything He is calling me into. God just laid it on my heart to write about deep sea diving. As soon as I began to write God began to speak to me through it all. I began to understand what he was telling me as I was writing this little letter as if it was a child writing to their father. :) I am so happy with God!!! He has given a lot of revelation on the simplest things. It's awesome!!!