~Rend Your Heart~

Well last night as I was lying in my bed I was reading my Bible. I flipped open to Joel and God really spoke using these verses:

Joel 2:12-13

Even now," declares the LORD,
"return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning."

Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.

There are two things God is asking of us to do here in these verses.

1. Return to Him with all your heart
2. Rend your heart and not your garments

Return to me with all your heat.

When I read those words they hit hard. Over this past year God has over and over again shown me how much He cares for me and loves me unconditionally. He telling us that He wants us and ALL of us. Not just 10% or 40%or70% God want 100% and MORE of us!! Think of it this way your earthly father or your mother loves you and they enjoy having conversation with you. As we mature and grow older we begin to see things as they do. It's the same way with God. He enjoys time with us. He enjoys hearing our voice. He loves communicating with us. As we pursue Him he wants to take us to a deeper level. We must continually give him all our heart.

We must to return to our FIRST LOVE.

Revelation 2:4-5 ( The Message)

"But you walked away from your first love—why? What's going on with you, anyway? Do you have any idea how far you've fallen? A Lucifer fall!
"Turn back! Recover your dear early love. No time to waste, for I'm well on my way to removing your light from the golden circle.

God's wants to be the first in all our lives. He wants us to be so focused on Him and completely consumed in his Holy Spirit. He wants intimacy with each and every one of us. The question is....do you want have intimacy with Him? Do you want to return to Him with all your heart? Do you want to give 100% and more to Him?
He is chasing after us everyday.... some more obvious then others. I know everyday I want a deeper relationship with God and a higher level of intimacy. Some days it is a real challenge to sit down and read my Bible or Praise God through God. I contend though because I what Jesus did for me and I choose to love God with ALL my heart. No it's never easy....but it is rewarding.

Rend Your Heart

I really began to think about what it means really to rend your heart. Rending our hearts means an act of opening up our hearts. The word rend, means to tear open or apart. So we already know God doesn't only want us to open our hearts but He wants us to REND them...to tear them open.

I think many of us have over used the word open. God wants us to be real with one another and to be open. He wants us to open our hearts to each other but most importantly He wants us to open our heart to Him. Rend our hearts to Him.

Psalm 51:17

The sacrifices of God are
a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.

God wants us to not only be open but be willing to lay everything down before Him. He wants us to Rend out hearts. In the OT people would tear the clothes as an outward sign to anguish, sorrow, or happiness.

Genesis 37:28-29
So when the Midianite merchants came by, his brothers pulled Joseph up out of the cistern and sold him for twenty shekels of silver to the Ishmaelites, who took him to Egypt.
When Reuben returned to the cistern and saw that Joseph was not there, he tore his clothes.

Are we willing to humble ourselves?

Are we going to continue to hind behind a mask and say "I am being real, I am open"?

Are we willing rend our hearts to God?

Are we willing to let God in our hearts and let him strip away everything that is unpleasing to him?

Are we willing?

Are we willing we return to him with our WHOLE heart?

Are we willing to make in the center of our lives?

Are we willing?

Are you willing?

~Always Low Prices!~

Alrighty I am only writing this because I am excited! I went out shopping tonight with Erin. I seriously have a whole new love and appreciation for wal-mart. I love that place. EVERYTHING is ALWAYS cheap or on sale! hahaha Oh goodness I can't believe I am writing all this down.

Now I know some of you like do you summer shopping.... well I say go do it ALL at wal- mart. You'll find everything you want there. Remember kids Wal- Mart always low prices....ALWAYS!

Don't forget the wonderful wal-mart staff. They are always on the ball with things. THey are all so very nice and kind to you. They are welcoming and they make you want to come back. Oh no they may not be a good thing for me haha. God Bless Wal-Mart and the workers.

Anyway I had a great day shopping with my bestest pal Erin friend. Everyone go to wal-mart!....EVERYONE!:

~Be Submersed into Prayer~

Something God has been really hitting me with lately is many scripture verse about prayer. I am so drawn to these verses, about people praying all night or gathering together to pray for a certain issue. People immersed in prayer. Interceding for other people. I know i have the gift of intercession and I love getting together to pray. I see that as a very important thing for the church, to come together and pray and intercede for others as well as minister to one another.

Immersed - To cover completely in a liquid; submerge, to baptize by submerging in water.

The sad thing is that many people do not know what prayer really is. Pray is not just something you do when you go to bed at night and give God your grocery list. Ex. God thank you for Bob, Betty, Tom, and the list can go on. Prayer is something from the heart. It's what you’re feeling and you share those deep feelings with God. Prayer is a way of communication with God. Think about it.... when you pray your praying to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. That amazes me; that we have that opportunity to pray to our King whenever we want. God waits patiently only to hear our voice go out to Him. He wants us to talk to him and as we wait he will respond to our prayers.

Prayer - is converse with God; the intercourse of the soul with God, not in contemplation or meditation, but in direct address to him.

Don't you see? God wants intimacy with us! In order for us to have intimacy with God we have to be able to give everything over to God, in doing that, we have prayer to God. We must stop limiting God to our satisfaction. He is much bigger and much more powerful then what we can ever comprehend. Sometimes we limit God saying “this problem is to big for God." or " there is no way God can heal me". Right there that would be someone putting limitations on God. I thinking that God doesn't believe in ceilings in heaven because if your in a room with a ceiling you can only jump so far before you hit that ceiling but you this God there is no ceiling... there is no limit. He wants more of us!

Our God is a God of healing, power, and authority. He is a God of LOVE! We must limiting God!!! Take that leap of faith and say I KNOW GOD I WILL do this!

Some verses that really spoke to me....

Acts 12

So Peter was kept in prison, but the church was earnestly praying to God for him.


When this had dawned on him, he went to the house of Mary the mother of John, also called Mark, where many people had gathered and were praying. Peter knocked at the outer entrance, and a servant girl named Rhoda came to answer the door. When she recognized Peter's voice, she was so overjoyed she ran back without opening it and exclaimed, "Peter is at the door!"

These takes place when King Herod arrested Peter and put him prison.

Acts 6:3-4

Brothers, choose seven men from among you who are known to be full of the Spirit and wisdom. We will turn this responsibility over to them and will give our attention to prayer and the ministry of the word."



Now remember we are the light of the world.

Matthew 5:14-15

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.

We must keep our lamps burning and bringing oil to them always.

Exodus 27:20

"Command the Israelites to bring you clear oil of pressed olives for the light so that the lamps may be kept burning.


Exodus 30:8

He must burn incense again when he lights the lamps at twilight so incense will burn regularly before the LORD for the generations to come.

Daily incense coming from the lamp stand. The incense is our prayers. Oil only comes from tending the lamp daily.

Are you a fragrance unto the Lord?

Are you tending your lamp stand?

Pray, spend TIME in the presence of God, and in time you will birth a new and higher level of intimacy with God because your spending TIME with Him. Him...God...Your first love.

As soon as we stop limiting God and BELIEVE that God can use us then we can do the works of healing, prophecy, casting out of demons, words of knowledge, words of wisdom etc. Remember faith without deeds is dead.

Psalm 2:8

Ask of me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession.

Colossians 4:2

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.

Can we say that we do that enough or at all? I know that we will come to together on certain occasions to intercede together but remember Paul says pray continually. We must be submersed in prayer.

Last night as I was having my time with God before I went to bed I was praying to God. I remember I had this vision of this huge fountain with water rushing out from the top and the whole thing was FULL of water. The water was still and glistened in the light. I saw myself go over to the fountain and step right into it. Then I saw God's hand on my head. As His hand was on my head I went all the way in to the water. The word I got as I was in the water was be submersed into prayer. So it's like submersing into water. He wants us to be ALL the way in not just at ankle level. He wants us to take that leap of faith.

What do you think?

What is God saying to you?

Are you limiting God?

Are you an incense to Him?

Do you want intimacy with the King?

Well I am going to end there. That is something that has been burning on my heart for a while but I needed time to make sense of it. I hope everything in this blog is readable and makes sense to you. May God Bless you.

~Adventures With Little Blue Bell~

Well tonight Jen Mac, Becca Tremblay and I headed to Camp Medley for a visit. I really missed Erin, so I wanted to see her. While we were there we got to see Eric and Brennan as well. Eric and Erin are on Spring maintance for Camp. Becca brought alone her new little puppy with her. The puppy's name is Blue Bell but they just call her Blue for short. It was the cutest thing ever. She actually slept on me most of the night while Jen, Erin and I were visiting and Becca and boys were out in the boat. Here are some pictures of Blue.

See she's only little.

Jen Mac and I with little Blue Bell

Blue and I. I thought it was cute that they had a blue coller for her with a little golden bell on it. hahah

On the way home we stopped at the shell that is just down the road from Camp Medley. We were hungry. The girls got chips and candy and I got my regular coffee and for fun I decided to try something new.... that I now regret! hahah I saw these chips in the store and laughed at them because they looked so weird but I said "hey I won't know what they really taste like till I try them right?"... so I got them. I was NOT impressed!!! :

They are called Veggie Chips.

All I have to say is YUCK YUCK YUCK.YUCK.BARF.COM!!!!!!

See what they look like.... that is what they taste like!! SICK!

Hmmm I should I go back shell and get my money back! Do you think I could really do that?

hah kidding.

Well that is all for now!

Peace out my friend and God Bless you all! :)

P.S NEVER buy veggie chips!