God's Heart and Cry

Alright this is just something I felt like sharing with everyone. This happened sometime late last week. I went to bed and then woke up around 10:30pm ( I went to bed really early that night) with the urge to talk to my mom. So I called and my brother answered the phone. He said she was already in bed. So I laid there in bed for a while just thinking. I began to think about my parents and how much I don't know them. I was thinking about how I wanted to know them. I wanted them to know me as my friends know me. I want to be real with them and feel open to say what I want with them. I want to know where they are with God and He is saying to them. Mostly I just want to know them, and I want them to know me. Then I began to cry because I was sad and upset that I didn't know my own parents and they didn't know me. I just laid there and cried.

Then God spoke to me through all this... He said now you know how I feel when I cry over my people, because I want to know them. They just don't have the desire to know me as I have to know them. God was showing me and giving me a piece of His heart. I was amazing. I just laid there and cried. I felt so good because I felt God's love surround me yet I felt pain because God was really showing how he was feeling and how His people. It was amazing. I can't put actual words to it. I can say God taught me a lot and showed me a lot though just that one night......... I want more...... of God..... more of His love.... more of His Heart..... more of His everything. I want all of Him.